Honesty, Healing, and Growth

The problem with social media is that is rarely shows the bad parts of life. It rarely shows the nights of crying, the days of depression, the anxiety attacks, the fear, the waves of grief and shame, the doubt, and the overwhelming pain from sin and this broken world. The faces are there, smiling perfectly. The encouraging words are put out for all to see. But the days of heartache leading to that split second of a smile aren’t shown. The tears and sweat are rarely seen in a fitness post. The scribbles of incoherent words in the journal are rarely revealed for all the thousands of virtual acquaintances to see. The tears, stress, ounces of worries, late-night panic attacks, and college debts are rarely the forefront of a graduation picture. The reality of life – it disappears in the single click of a button. The tap, swipe, and edit of the finger.

We walk around masked – putting a good face for those we love, for those we care about, and for those we want to impress. But behind those masks, do you really know what they are going through? Do you know their story? Are you willing to listen to their story? The stigma of perfection is a trap. The idea that we cannot have mistakes in our lives, especially as Christians, is wrong. If we are not willing to accept other people’s mistakes and love them despite their brokenness, then we aren’t willing to accept our own brokenness. Not every pot shatters in the same way. Likewise, not every soul touched by grief, pain, heartache, and sorrow will respond in the same way, process in the same way, and heal in the same way. Some people want a quick fix, others try alternative paths. Some are short term, and some are long term. However, we must always remember that the only true source of healing is found in Christ. While it is easy to find thousands of self-help ways to healing, it is so crucial that Christians go back to Scripture. Healing comes from God. No matter the circumstance, the inherent nature of God never changes. If we get angry at him for not answering our prayers for this specific circumstance then we are discrediting who God is. 

It’s difficult. Actually, it’s REALLY hard to break years of habits, mindsets, insecurities, and soul ties.

But it’s possible.

I’ve felt deep shame. I’ve made very poor choices. I’ve given pieces of myself away in hopes that it would make them stay. I’ve been desperate enough to just be enough. It’s not easy. I can’t pretend that it is or will be. I’ve had to pray to the Lord that He would require what I was attracted to because what I’m attracted to isn’t healthy for me. It’s just not. But relearning how to date in a God-honoring way is worth it. For my heart, my relationship with God, my self-confidence, my future marriage, my future children. I’ve been labeled a “bad girl” who feared above all that I could never find a “good man” who would want me. But that’s simply not true.

Grace upon grace. Go and sin no more.

As God romances your heart, let Him tell you about the type of love to hold out for. This is the type of love that reminds you daily of God’s love and how much He loves you.

You, my friend, are not alone in this battle. You’re not the only one who has settled for less than God intended. You deserve more and you can do better. Remember the hope that Christ offers. Circumstances will change, but God will never change. Cling to that truth.

In Christ Always,


Today God is…

In the past couple of months, I have learned valuable lessons about who God is and what He has done for me. I admit, when I read through the Bible and the different narratives, I see people who inspire me, but I struggle to relate to them. Their stories seem so complete and their journeys make sense. Without a doubt, we all know our lives have taken drastic turns whether with school, with friends, with family, or with health. The Psalms have become an immense comfort to me as my life has taken its most recent ups and downs. Nevertheless, despite all the uncertainties I find David, in particular, writing beautiful, relatable Psalms.

Psalm 42 is one that is dear to me, as it follows an internal emotional struggle and turmoil that, in the end, glories in the truth of who God is. Many times, I have fought back the discouragement of looking at my past, my circumstances and finding hope in God, praising him once again, knowing this emotion will pass and this season will pass, and reminding myself to look to Jesus always. What I’ve learned? It is okay to be honest with God as long as I keep going back to what is true.

“why art though cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance and my God.”

— Psalm 42:11

This is the end of the chapter.

Is it a happy ending? Not entirely. Like almost everything else in this life, it is mixed. While we get to see the amazing fight and David’s faith despite the immense turmoil he is facing, we still see he is not where he wants to be in hope, peace, and praise. If we watch this psalmist struggle, if we meditate on God’s instruction day and night, our thoughts about God and life, on the one hand, and our emotions, on the other hand, will be shaped by God.

In Christ Always,

He is Worthy

Contentment is finding joy in what God has given to you. Contentment is a Christian grace that grows over time. And unfortunately, it doesn’t come quickly enough sometimes. I still struggle with resting in the assurance that Christ is sufficient. Paul says in Philippians 4:12, “I have learned to be content”. It’s a gradual process just like healing brokenness. God uses the experience of loss and pain to produce the good fruit of contentment. One thing I have realized over the past few weeks as the semester is ending and the year is coming to a close is that no matter what my circumstance, Christ is worthy. He is worthy of my praise. He is worthy of my devotion. He is worthy of my love.  He is worthy of my repentance and my joy. He is worthy.

So many times I turn to Scripture, I cry tears of pain to God. I wonder if there is hope when I feel hopeless. That is so far from the truth. The heart of worship is found in the praise of the object of my love: God. David says in Psalm 18:1-2,

“I love you, Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.”

My praise starts with remembering the full weight of the incredible, steadfast love of God. I praise God because of His faithfulness that endures forever. We live in a culture where so few things are faithful and enduring. Yet through all the brokenness of this world, God is still faithful. Think about these words: faithful, endure, forever. All three of those contain elements of each other in a way that almost seems redundant. Faithful means fidelity. Endurance means you’re in it for the long haul. And forever — well —  means forever. So here we are reminded that God is a triple dose of fidelity. Not just faithful. Not just enduring faithfulness. But enduring faithfulness forever. Wow.

John Piper says, “To be worthy of the infinite worth of Jesus is to see and savor him as infinitely worthy.” I become worthy of grace when I see my need for grace. And sometimes this ‘seeing my need for grace’ is through the tough situations of life. But when we finally embrace the infinite value of God’s grace, our desperate preference for His gracious worthiness over all things – boy can we treasure it and receive it in the most beautiful way possible.

Is He worthy? Is He worthy?

He is!



In Christ Always,

Hope after Heartbreak

I know it’s been a while since I’ve written here. I don’t know who all reads this, but I pray that if you do read this, I hope that God is glorified through my words to impact you.

Trials. How do we respond? So many times I’ve been brought through pain — the type of emotional pain that hurts your heart physically. The type of pain that makes your bones ache. The type of pain that physically numbs you. Heartbreak hurts. Brokenness tears you apart. Shame drags you down. There is scientific evidence that the human body actually undergoes physical changes in the heart, immune system, and mental awareness when brought through intense emotional distress. However, I have learned that the greatest thing you can do during times of pain is to turn to God. It’s easier said than done, I admit, but it is also the right thing and the only way we will find true healing.

Nobody wants to break. We all want to be whole and put together. And when we break, it is messy and the pieces get everywhere. However, I wholeheartedly believe that without breaking, our testimonies are only half as powerful and half as miraculous and half as relatable. Without breaking, we would not know the faithfulness and goodness of God. And by not breaking, we miss out on the most intentional and deep ways that God shows His love for us. He is in the breaking, and he is in the breakthrough. There is hope! Christ is stronger than me and I must remember my identity is in Christ. It is not in my circumstances. It is not in people. It is not in myself. It is in Christ. I have experienced and seen God restore the un-restorable and seen Him heal the most broken of hearts.

While I’m in the middle of the breaking, I have never been more aware of my weakness, yet I have never been more dependant upon His strength. I have never been more uncertain yet seen the clarity of His truths. I have never shed so many tears yet felt the comfort of my heavenly Father’s embrace so close. Yes, healing will take time. Yes there will be a part of me that will bear these scars. But one thing that I’ve learned from the past that has always prevailed is that God truly is good. Whether I am suffering or I am at peace, He never changes. And the cool thing? It’s always about God and He has a purpose to all the trials we go through. He has watched His sinful, broken creation, yet he still loves us unconditionally. That right there overwhelms me with gratitude and a desire to live my life for this amazing God.

Be encouraged, my friends. Whatever pain you’re going through; whatever trial you’re enduring, there is hope and rest in Jesus Christ.

When I am alone, You are my comforter. (2 Corinthians 1:3)

When I am nothing, You are my everything. (Philippians 4:19)

When I am sad and lonely, You are my song and my joy. (James 1:2-3)

When I am weak and helpless, You are my strength. (Psalm 46:1-3)


In Christ Always,

It’s All About Jesus

Dear Friends,

It is hard to believe I have almost completed my first year of nursing school. Life goes by so fast, and within the blink of an eye, God can take away — loved ones, relationships, friendships, things precious to your heart. We are certainly not guaranteed tomorrow and we must live life to its fullest.

Galatians 2:20 sums up how God has radically been changing my life.

“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”

Sometimes we think that being crucified with Christ is all about what we give up —practicing self-denial and saying no to sin, temptations, and worldly pleasures. However, there is so much truth that includes living in the power of His resurrected life. The amazing part about being children of God is the fact that Jesus Christ makes His abode in us, empowering us to overcome sin and live righteously. However, we can’t deny the fact that He also carries our burdens and encourages our spirits to trust Him. Just as we are saved by faith, so also we must live each and every day, each and every breath that we take upon this sin-stricken world by faith, trusting the Lord day by day with all our needs and concerns.

The beautiful refrain lyrics of the song “Not I, but Christ” written by Ada Widdington say this:

“O to be saved from myself, dear Lord,
O to be lost in Thee,
O that it might be no more I,
But Christ, that lives in me.”

How little faith do we have throughout the day? I love the line that says, “O to be lost in Thee.” Imagine if we lived every step so completely lost in our Lord and Savior and so radically in love with Him? How much would our lives change? It mustn’t be myself, but it must be Christ…

…in his obedience,

…in his righteousness,

…in his sacrifice,

…in justification,

…in regeneration,

…in sanctification,

The point is that Christianity can be boiled down to one word:

C H R I S T 

Charles Spurgeon said this, “If you leave out Christ, you have left the sun out of the day, and the moon out of the night, you have left the waters out of the sea, and the floods out of the river, you have left the harvest out of the year, the soul out of the body, you have left joy out of heaven, you robbed all of it’s all. There is no gospel worth thinking of, much less worth proclaiming if Jesus be forgotten. We must have Jesus as Alpha and Omega in all our ministries.”

Amen. This is exactly the type of focus we need to live by. There is no gospel…if Jesus be forgotten. It’s all about Jesus, friends.

N O T   I,   B U T   C H R I S T.


In Christ Always,

A High Calling

Dear friends,

I know it has been quite a while since writing something and I apologize for that. One question I have gotten a lot since graduating high school is, “what are you going to do after graduation?” This question has rolled around in my head quite a bit. I’m majoring in nursing, but what do I want to do with that? Something crucial that I had to remember was that I am a Christian who has been given the opportunity to use my gifts through nursing. Many times in life people ditch their faith by the way side to promote their own career. Don’t get me wrong, a successful career is not sinful, but is it higher than your faith?

Over that past year I have felt a burden to join the mission field. I struggled with the question, “How do I know God is calling me to missions?” I’ve been on two life changing missions trips. One to Guatemala for six weeks and just this past month to Utah and Montana where we administered 1 Corinthians 13 love through our actions. In radically different ways yet in very similar ways, all three locations needed Christ.

I often prayed earnestly and thought deeply about whether God was calling me to missions for fear of stepping out in a direction that might be contrary to God’s will, believing I needed to see some “miracles” or “signs.” After my first mission trip (the loooong one to Guatemala), my decision making process changed radically. I realized that I was approaching the question of calling from the completely wrong direction. Until that time I had assumed that God was not calling me to go on mission until I heard him saying “Go.” Now I believe that he is calling me to mission unless I hear him saying “No.”

Every Christian has been called to participate in God’s mission to reconcile the world to himself. We don’t all need to be called to a remote part of Africa, or a persecuted country like Chine. After all, if we were all called to the same place, how could we reach all the nations with the good news of Jesus Christ? Among Jesus’ final words to his disciples is the Great Commission, in which he announces that the mission of the Church is to make disciples of all nations:

And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age (Matthew 28:18-20).

I have come to realize that taking the commands and promises of Scripture seriously means recognizing that we are living out an everyday, everywhere mission. Whether you’re a student,, plumber, business executive, stay-at-home mom, or active missionary, we are all called to make disciples of Jesus right where we are. Participating in God’s mission does not require us to get on a plane or cross an ocean. We can begin making disciples today in our homes, schools, workplaces, and communities. We don’t have to limit our selves to one specific nation. Where the doors are open, by all means go through. But let’s not forget whether we are called to the foreign mission field or the home front, together we are entrusted with the same mission, empowered by the same Spirit, and graced by the same promise that the mission will succeed.

In Christ Always,


Keep Fighting

Dear Friends,

I come before you today worn out and exhausted: Mentally, emotionally, and physically. There are some days that I feel as if life is impossible. That I will not be able to finish the fight. I am reminded of the promise that “Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worth patience” (James 1:3). Through that trials and the hardships I am brought through, keeping the faith and striving for a close relationship with God will have its reward.

Faith is the decision to love even when you don’t feel God’s presence. Faith is built through the decision to love, no matter the circumstances. The more you choose to love, the greater your faith will grow. No matter how much pain, trials, or temptations you’ve been through, keep faith.  Don’t waste energy on despair, hopelessness, or depression. Instead, put it into bolstering your faith. When you feel you can’t go on, or like you’ll never make a difference, just draw on your faith. When you feel oppression so thick it steals the air, breathe faith. A world of peace depends on the love we bring into it. No one can ever rob us of our ability to love.

It’s easier said than done, coming from a position where I don’t feel adequate or adept enough to speak on such a matter as I am myself struggling, but it’s a great reminder for me that keeping my focus on Christ will have its rewards. It will endure. It will prosper. It will last. It will be the defining part of who I am.

I have come to realize that I must look beyond my hopeless situation to my hopeful God. He fulfills hope in any situation. No circumstances are beyond the reach of God’s hope. No matter how hopeless the situation seems, choose to believe that God can still change it if he chooses to do so.  In Luke 18:27, Jesus declares:

“What is impossible with man is possible with God.”

Stay connected with Christ through prayer. Keep knocking on God’s door through prayer. Never give up. I remember Jesus’ words from Matthew 7:7-9: “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.” If you remember what God has done for you in the past, He will surprise you for your future. Remembering what God had done before in my life helps me stay hopeful about what God may do for me in the future, in His timing. Remembering some key answered prayers from your own past can help give you a fresh dose of hope right now about something on which you’re still waiting for God’s answer. Trusting God to surprise you with hope in the midst of a situation that seems hopeless will lead you to blessings of joy and peace. I pray that whenever trials arise, that you turn to Christ. Lean on Him for strength, for perseverance, for hope.  Romans 15:13 says,

“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”

In Christ Always,


Life’s Valleys

Hello friends. There always comes a time in life where we are hit square in the face with tribulation and pain. We think it is hopeless, we believe there’s no way out of the slump, we constantly ask the question ‘why.’

God never asks us to go through valleys alone. In life, we all like the mountaintop experiences better than the valleys. But the never ending truth is, we’re going to go through valleys. It’s inevitable. You’ve observed that, haven’t you? John 16:33 says that “in the world ye shall have tribulation.” But the verse doesn’t end there. On no, it gives a wonderful and beautiful promise. It says,

but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

He wants us to fully understand that His peace will allow us to remain stable in the turbulent world that is around us. His peace has overcome the world! Be encouraged that the valleys are temporary — there is an end. And valleys have a purpose. God never wastes our pain. Just because we don’t see or feel God at work in our lives doesn’t mean that He isn’t. God is always at work behind the scenes, arranging circumstances as He sees fit, and orchestrating events as He needs them to bring about His great plan. I love the passage in 1 Peter where the apostle Peter says this:

There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you must endure many trials for a little while.These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world” (1 Peter 1:6b-7, NLT).

God is a good, good Father who loves us and works all things for our benefit. He loves us so much that absolutely nothing can get in the way of His love for us. Nothing you’ve done in the past, no character flaw you think you have, no choices you’ve made – nothing. “For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, more depth, more any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord” (Romans 8:28-29, KJV).

While it’s hard to hold on when your world might be turning upside-down, don’t doubt the sovereignty of God. If you don’t understand what God is up to, that’s okay — you’re not supposed to! I don’t know about you, but I wouldn’t want to serve a God who was small enough to be fully understood by me. Whatever tough circumstances you might be facing right now, you are definitely not alone and you don’t have to go through it alone. Lean on Christ for comfort and reassurance and lean on other believers for prayer, strength, and grace to get through the next day. Just do the next right thing, trusting God that He is in control. I will end with another beautiful promise from 2 Corinthians chapter 4 verses 8-9:

“We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;”

In Christ Always,


Ordinary or Out There 

Lordship changes our lifestyle, and our lifestyle reflects who is Lord.

Who is Lord in your life? If lordship doesn’t impact our lifestyle, is it really lordship? In Esther 3 we see the example of Mordecai daring to live like God was his king. Rather than obeying King Xerxes and “going with the flow,” he refused to bow to the rulers of this world and compromise his faith. We see an example of not just a Jew by name, but a Jew through and through, standing up for his faith and his King, regardless of culture and where he lived.

Globally, Christians face persecution and martyrdom at a heartbreaking rate yet, here in the United States people are clamoring for tolerance of all people but Christians.

Christians standing up for their faith should make us want to be the Mordecai in our family, at our school, or in our workplace. Don’t be content with being a nominal Christian, being absorbed into the 21st century culture. It starts with wanting your life to reflect a life that looks like Christ. God’s ways are right and true regardless of the culture or creed. Take a stand, fight for what is true. Christ will reward those who seek after His name.


In Christ Always,
||Hannah E. Evans||

My Chains are Gone

“My chains are gone
I’ve been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, amazing grace.”

Unending love — What a promise!

A good friend of mine shared the song, “Amazing Grace” with me, reminding me that through all of our dangers, toils, and snares God’s love is and will always be there. In the midst of sin and in the midst of pain and suffering, the grace of God toward His children will never be exhausted.

My friends, God loves you. God loves you because He has chosen to do so. He loves you when you don’t feel loved, and He loves you when no one else loves you. Others may abandon you, ridicule you, and ignore you, but God will love you.

Always. No matter what.

— Max Lucado

Pain is a natural part of life, and you can’t escape it. There will always be broken relationships, missed opportunities, and tough seasons of life. When they do come, you can either become bitter or hopeful.


In the midst of a depressing onslaught, Jeremiah says in Lamentations 3:21, “Yet hope returns …”

How can you have hope even in your darkest days? Always remember the Lord’s unfailing love and mercy still continue. You can always count on that!

When kindness comes grudgingly, remember His kindness to us and pray to Him to make you more kind. When patience is scarce, thank the Creator for His and ask Him to make you more patient. When it is hard to forgive, don’t list all the times you’ve been given grief; rather, list all the times you’ve been given grace and pray to become more forgiving. God allows us to receive first so we can give later. Drink deeply from heaven’s endless love, and in doing so, you will discover a love worth giving.

In Christ Always,