In the past couple of months, I have learned valuable lessons about who God is and what He has done for me. I admit, when I read through the Bible and the different narratives, I see people who inspire me, but I struggle to relate to them. Their stories seem so complete and their journeys make sense. Without a doubt, we all know our lives have taken drastic turns whether with school, with friends, with family, or with health. The Psalms have become an immense comfort to me as my life has taken its most recent ups and downs. Nevertheless, despite all the uncertainties I find David, in particular, writing beautiful, relatable Psalms.
Psalm 42 is one that is dear to me, as it follows an internal emotional struggle and turmoil that, in the end, glories in the truth of who God is. Many times, I have fought back the discouragement of looking at my past, my circumstances and finding hope in God, praising him once again, knowing this emotion will pass and this season will pass, and reminding myself to look to Jesus always. What I’ve learned? It is okay to be honest with God as long as I keep going back to what is true.
“why art though cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance and my God.”
— Psalm 42:11
This is the end of the chapter.
Is it a happy ending? Not entirely. Like almost everything else in this life, it is mixed. While we get to see the amazing fight and David’s faith despite the immense turmoil he is facing, we still see he is not where he wants to be in hope, peace, and praise. If we watch this psalmist struggle, if we meditate on God’s instruction day and night, our thoughts about God and life, on the one hand, and our emotions, on the other hand, will be shaped by God.